Lately I’ve come face-to-face with my fallen humanity in ways that are extremely uncomfortable. God has a way of showing us who we really are and uses others around us to do it.
It can be a scary thing when we display the ugly inside of us. It’s scary because we have a tendency to see ourselves more positively than we really are. We are like our father Adam when we are called out for our mess, because we’re inclined to blame others and circumstances for our wrongdoing.
For me, its been my pride. As I write this, it humbles me knowing how easy it was for pride to rise up within me without me being able to identify it. This pride was shown through my defensiveness and condescending speech in response to an issue being discussed.
Experiencing this kind of exposure is a huge blessing for me as bad as it feels when I’m faced with myself and my flaws, because it allows me to change and grow. A prayer that David prays in the Psalms is one that I pray often, and God loves to answer in my life.
Psalms 139:23-24 is a request for God to search my heart, so that He can remove anything unclean within me.
“Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
Psalms 139:23-24 (NLT)
My own experiences tell me I don’t see myself as truthfully as I should, and even without God, there are others who can see and point things out about us that we can’t see. How much more with a God who is perfect and views us through a perfect lens?
Let us all pray on our behalf when we go to God because there’s real freedom in facing sin head on and receiving the mercy only Christ gives.
What are your thoughts? Any particular moment in your life when you remember exposing who you were on the inside? Let’s talk in the comments!